Deceiving ourselves

All of us can put up a good front when we are around others. We can fake about who we are, what we believe, and what we are feeling. Only WE can really know ourselves...or do we? You probably can think back to a time when you liked something or not liked something or pretended to feel a certain way but you didn't really feel that way. At the time you're truly convinced that that was who you were. As we grow older, our self awareness becomes more sensitive and we're less likely to jump off the cliff with the rest of the gang. Most of us have gotten past all of that-at least in our interactions with people. Some still live like a chameleon. Changing with different environments. Not really knowing what they like, what they believe, or who they are. We ignore the reality of who we are inside.

I wonder if it still this way in our interaction with God? Do I still ignore the reality of who I am in my relationship to my God? I think it's rather funny that I think that I can hide me-who I am-from God. But I sure try. I find myself believing all kinds of stuff the rest of world tells me about me and not what God tells me. I also find myself thinking that I am "ok" spiritually. Denying the fact that there are many areas of my life that need work. If I'm not in denial, I'm oblivious to the icky aspects of my life.

Not only do we pretend, but we are convinced that we are fine spiritually. In reality we are not. This causes us to become stagnant Christians-no growth, no desire for growth, no passion for things of God. We only live for ourselves. We are satisfied with too little in our lives.