My job is OK, but not quite what I expected. I'm on call more than I like. I work more than I like. In the last 2 weeks I put in 96 hours. If it continues, i'm not sure how long I'll stay at this hospital. My life is not about my work. My life is more than that.
Friends have been coming to visit, which is so great. It seems that in the past, I've been the one doing all the traveling. I find that I make a lot of effort to maintain my friendships, but I'm finding that I'm tired of making the effort all the time. Friendship is a 2 way street. This weekend another friend came to visit. It's been lovely having her here. I appreciate her honesty and sense of humor.
Relationships with guys should be simple but it's not. I'm finding that friends and family have certain expectations about what type of guy I should be with. He should be this amazing nice guy that goes to church every week. His knowledge of the Bible should be extensive. He should know how to pray. He would love to volunteer. Etc. And I think I have those same expectations. Well what if the person I meet is not that person? He may be a Christian, but he may not go to church. He may be open to talking about God, but his knowledge of the Bible may be limited. Maybe he doesn't even know how to pray. What if he's a new Christian and knows nothing about what it means to be one? The fact that I've been a Christian for so long may not mean that I end up dating someone who is the same. I'm still processing through some stuff.
I've been going to this church in Kenosha that I really like. I'm hoping that in the fall, I'll get involve a bit more. Over all, I know my life is blessed. Good job, family, and friends. There are definitely bumps in the road, but how I handle it shows who I have trust in (God or myself). And through it I build my character.
