Tired

I'm tired today. I was on call this whole weekend. Yikes. I feel like i've been chewed and spit out. I'm appreciating a day off tomorrow.

Tonight I gave my testimony to the Salt n Light group at church. I was a little nervous because I was hoping that I keep my composure, but I knew that I couldn't. What a sap I am! It was emotional reflecting on my past. God moved in many different ways in my life. I couldn't help but tear up when I talked about how God worked in my life.

I always want to be that person who rarely shed a tear. As much as I try, i'm not that person. I'm me. When I feel, I feel deeply.

Maybe part of it is because i'm so tired today....

God has been so good to me. Thank you, my Lord.

homesick

I enjoyed my trip home. Rather short, but that's how it goes... Mom made some of my favorite laotion food. Yummy! I got together with Marla, Amy, and Christie. It was so fun. We ate at a cute restaurant in South Bend called the Vine. Great food! It really makes me miss home even more as I reflect back on my trip right now. Sometime I would like to move back, but i don't know what God has in store for me. My heart wants to move back, but there's this part of me that is waiting to hear where God is going to take me. Maybe back to Indiana (where i'm wanting to go right now). Maybe some crazy far off place. Who knows? We shall see.

sad goodbye

Friday I went to get things from my little red Honda and say goodbye one last time. Pitiful isn't it? I don't know how I got attached to that car. I pulled my 4 sunglasses out, my maps, my hand sanitizer, my pens, my flashlight, and last but not least-my Slim Jims. I didn't realize I had so many stashed in the glove compartment:-) So, Little Red is no more. I'm lookin to buy a new car. I thought about buying a used one, but I like the idea of being the first and only owner. I'm waiting to hear how much they will give me for my car tomorrow. I've been looking at consumer report online and the Honda CRV seems like a nice vehicle. I know that I would like to have a small SUV, and that seems to fit the bill. I didn't anticipate buying a new car for another 5 years or so, but since my car accident, i'm considering a new car. Financially, I'm hoping for enough money to lease it for 1 year, then buy it after I'm done with school. I talked to my dad and my friends Charlie and Miriam. I think they are in agreement that in my situation, leasing it for a year makes sense...

This Thursday, i'm driving home to see my family. My two bestfriends Amy and Marla are driving up to northern Indiana to spend time with me. We are having a girls night with our friend Christy on Saturday. Yeah! I'm so excited to see my family and friends....

car accident continued...

So I got a call from the other person's insurance adjuster today. My car is totalled. I was in a little shock. I loved my car. I was done with my payments. It was cute. It was fast. I'm going to the car place and get some stuff from my car tomorrow and say goodbye to it. I'm a bit sad, I must say.

So now i'm waiting to hear back from the adjuster tomorrow to let me know the amount the insurance company is paying me for the car. My heart is not ready to hear the amount tomorrow. I'm thinking it's not going to be enough to get me a similar car. We'll see how it goes...

I know everything is going to be fine. I just would rather spend my time doing other things than looking for a decent vehicle to drive:-(

car accident

Yesterday, I got rear-ended by a minivan.. ick. I was turned on my left signal and stopped because there was a car coming toward me on the other lane. A minivan pulled up behind me and was not paying attention. She hit my car head on. My car bumped forward and was off the road. I was in a little shock. Didn't quite know what happened.

I'm thankful that she was OK and that i'm not hurt either. Kinda a bummer to mess with paperwork and insurance. The policeman was nice at least. My trunk of my car does not shut and my car did not start at all. Something happened. Had to get my car towed. I had tried to call people to give me a ride to a car rental place at the airport. No one picked up their phone. Finally, Jesse picked up his phone. Yeah. I was greatful he dropped his homework to take me to the airport. I am thankful I have many friends to call. Usually, one person would eventually pick up.

So... i'm driving a rental. I don't know how long it is going to take to fix my car-2 weeks, 3 weeks? They're taking a look at it today...

Such is life... never boring for me... I am thankful God protected me.

difficult living

One thing this week that I was reminded of is that in all I do, I need to take in consideration other people's needs. Crazy idea, isn't it? The world around me would tell me otherwise. Society tells me that my needs come first. In the Bible, it says that in all I do, I need to do it to please and glorify God first. Second, other people's need need to be considered (I Cor 10:13). In making my decisions or doing various activities, I need to take in consideration if it is going to encourage other people, if it is going to help them grow in their faith or hinder it, etc. It's very difficult to put other people's need before mine. I value my time and my freedom, yet I'm called to live and love unselfishly. I'm called to love people-all people. Those who believe in Jesus as well as those who do not. Christian love is not based on emotion. We are obligated to love because of what Jesus did on the cross for all of us (Romans 12-13). Love is sacrificial. How am I living it out?

nice surprise

Has anyone gone to work and discovered that you actually had a vacation day? This past Friday I got to the hospital at 6am all ready to go...only to discover I had a vacation day. I put the request in a long time ago and forgot about it. Unexpected planned vacation day:-) It was such a lovely day. Love it. Love it. Love it.

This past weekend me, Emily Bystry, and Amy Baker went on a little spiritual retreat. It was great to reflect back on what God has done in our lives. We looked at our visions we had for our lives-in congruent to what God calls us to do. I was encouraged this weekend. God, where are you taking me? I am eagerly, yet patiently waiting....

Time is where your heart is

Actions speak louder than words. When someone tells you they love you, yet they spend time doing other things than spend time with you, it really tells you they don't really care about you at all. This past week really helped me see a glimpse of how God must feel towards us. We say we love God, yet we choose to spend our time doing other things than spend time with Him. We sometimes choose things we don't even like doing than spend a little time reading His word. The disjointedness between what we say and what we do is disheartening to me. Paralleling what we say and what we do is one of the most difficult things as a Christian. Saying what we believe is one thing, but living it out is another. We live in hypocrisy more often than we are aware of. Being aware of this makes us more attuned to how we are living. Are we living out what we say we believe?